Today’s Word: Procrastination

I grew up a lazy child. My parents gave me everything I wanted because I cried and bawled and stomped and didn’t give in until I got my way. Seriously, looking back, I would’ve killed me as a child. Now, I’m an adult. I work in order to make money so I can buy the things I need to survive while using what tiny bit I have leftover to purchase the things I want. But the laziness developed into something evil, something all adults face at one time or the other: procrastination.

Procrastination: I haz it...

It’s becoming a big problem. In fact, it’s been a big problem. Procrastination runs rampart through vast parts of my life: work, school, relationships, and more. It isn’t that I don’t care. In fact, I stress about it tremendously instead of just doing it, and then I’m mad at myself for not just doing it and I develop more stress. Thus, the never-ending cycle continues.

I want to fix it, and I plan on bringing it to my therapist’s attention next session. I have so many ideas and plans on getting my life going, but I keep procrastinating, blaming work and school and stress. Then, I don’t do any of it and I get mad and I get stressed all over again. See, it’s that cycle returning again, even in my article.

I'd say it's like a drain, but I'm fat so stairs scare me more...

I must overcome the feeling of procrastination. I want to be successful. I want my life to be filled with adventure and fun while keeping up with my work. How do I balance all these things? I’m too young and naive to know! Or am I? No, I’m ready. I just have to learn. For so many other people, they know, they simply do and bury themselves in something until it’s finished. I’m already buried under piles of stress; I can’t take anymore. But I feel like a loser.

So what do I do?…

And this is why I’m in therapy.

"Damn bitch! You're psycho..."

If Not Now, When?

“If I am not for myself, then who will be for me? And if I am only for myself, then what am I? And if not now, when?”

-Rabbi Hillel

I love Reddit. If it weren’t for Reddit, I wouldn’t have half the interesting, intelligent conversations I have on a daily basis. Actually, let’s make it ninety percent of the intelligent conversations. You guys are the other ten percent. Thank you for keeping me sane.

Well, the other day, I participated in a debate with a fellow Redditor about the importance of voting for Obama over the recent interest of Ron Paul. I won’t get into a huge debate about who should be voted over whom. I will, however, explain why I am voting for Obama:

I know where Obama stands on various topics, and I believe he will move towards giving me the rights I’m continuously denied every day due to being gay. As for Ron Paul, as much as he says his religious views won’t reflect how he handles policy, I still worry about the future of equality in the hands of the older gentleman.

Every time I think of Ron Paul, I envision this guy...

The other person in the debate said I was the perfect example of why this country was going to Hell. I worry about special interests rather than the security of the nation and the rights being trampled by Obama. He was, of course, referring to the signing of the National Defense Authorization Act (NDAA).

If you haven’t heard, Obama signed the NDAA and one of the provisions states the President can send military personnel into someone’s house believed to be associated with the Taliban and/or Al-Qaeda and brought in for questioning without a warrant or a trial. It’s definitely a concern. After all, we have a right to a fair trial, yes?

However, if you didn’t already know, these types of search and seizures were happening under the radar before the law was signed into effect thanks to the NDAA. And if Obama hadn’t signed the NDAA, the military wouldn’t have been paid and the President would be seen as anti-military, costing him the election and guaranteeing the success of one of the Republican candidates. For Ron Paul supporters, they would assume it was Ron Paul. Sadly, he isn’t the one leading the Republican poles right now.

It's these two douche bags...

So I weighed the options: the equal rights I’ve been denied since birth because I love penises or the rights that were already being trampled on without permission for the last however many years. I chose my equal rights.

For many of you, you may not understand. The only thing I could come up with was the quote above, or at least the last part of it: “If not now, when?” If women decided to rest during WW1, they wouldn’t have their equal rights to vote. Women picketed in front of the White House daily to fight for their rights. Alice Paul is the perfect example that we should never back down, despite the times.

I won’t argue that the provision in the NDAA is scary, and unconstitutional, but I won’t give up on my fight for equal rights because the President has the power, in the public’s eyes, he had before signing it into law. Voting Ron Paul into office would be a pointless battle. He’d prefer the states to regulate such a thing.

And we know how well that's worked out so far...

There is No Review: Only Zuul

Because my life is so awesome, and I couldn’t really spurt out anything interesting enough for my Monday review… I don’t have anything for you. I tried writing about The Help (both book and movie) but I couldn’t get into the groove. I think I’ve become possessed, and whatever is inside of me is jealous of my writing talent.

Sadly, all I got today is this awesome scene from an awesome movie. ENJOY!

PS – MADGAYMAN WANTS SOME CHOCOLATE NOM NOM NOM!

PPS- Whatever possessed me is a hungry bitch.

PPPS- DO NOT LISTEN TO THE FAT MAN!

PPPPS- Bitch, technically you’re fat now too.

PPPPPS- CHOCOLATE! Oh sorry… this is still Mad… the mention of chocolate made me hungry.